Sunday, December 27, 2015
And I Want A Gravy Boat
I've decided what I want. New dishes. I got dishes for a wedding gift. I didn't pick them. I didn't particularly like them. But I used them. And they were very functional. I didn't think too much about my dishes.
Until Corelle ran an ad compaign that said when I said 'till death do us part' I meant my husband, not my dishes. I was 18 years and 4 kids into my marriage, and pretty sure I was keeping my husband. Corelle had just released the Fruit Basket design, and I was pretty sure (did I mention 4 kids?) I couldn't afford new dishes. And then I got a speeding ticket for driving 43 miles per hour out of South Fork. Excessive speed. One hundred and thirty five dollars worth of excessive speed. So apparently I had $135 dollars to spend. And nothing to show for it. So I spent my next $135 on 2 sets of Fruit Basket Corelle and 1 set of coordinating Fruit Too. Service for twelve, or two meals for six. And I got coordinating salt and pepper shakers and canisters and the sugar bowl and butter dish. And a tea kettle. And I added a fruit border. Because, apparently, speed wasn't the only excessive thing in my life in 1998.
Now another 18 years have passed. And evidently that is about as long as I can be content with dishes. Because now I want Fiesta Ware.
For Christmas Santa brought me one four place setting of Lemongrass fiesta ware. And I have picked out 5 other colors of fiesta ware that I want. Scarlet. Poppy. Tangerine. Sunflower. And turquoise. Two place settings of each. Service for twelve. I figure that Christmases, birthdays, anniveraries, half off sales and Kohl's bucks all considered it will take me about 4 years to complete my set. The good news is that I only need two sets to make them my everyday dishes. And I won't want new dishes until I have been married for 58 years.
On Christmas Day, on my way home from work, I was pulled over for speeding coming into Dodge City. And given a warning instead of a citation. I'm thinking that's worth at least two place settings.
Grow Your Own Tree
The Goob got his Christmas stocking when he was home for Thanksgiving. It had one small gift to open every day that he was away between Thanksgiving break and the end of the semester. Most of the gifts were edible. But one of the first gifts was a flower pot roughly the size of a thimble. Grow your own tree kit from the dollar section at Target. It was the one thing I thought the Goob wouldn't care one thing about. But when he arrived home for Christmas he had a tiny flower pot with two tiny green sprouts. Which he has continued to care for.
The Goob continues to surprise me.
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Why there is no Christmas Picture
Took this picture when the Goob was home for Thanksgiving. In a blinding snowstorm. Sent for prints to add to the Christmas cards. Lost in the mail. Starting over? Or giving up? Can't decide.
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Two of the Best
All good.
Thankful The Goob was home this weekend. Good to see him looking good. Less than 3 weeks until the end of the semester. We'll see if we get along as well for 4 weeks as we did for 4 days.
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Thanksgiving Day
91. Thankful no one expects a lot from me in the culinary department.
92. Thankful for old favorite dishes. Cranberry jello salad. Sweet potato casserole.
93. Thankful the Goob made the crescent rolls. Raised him to be a good Havener.
94. Thankful for leftovers packed neatly away in the fridge. No question what we will eat the next few days, just what form we will eat it in.
95. Thankful for the STP who is an excellent turkey picker and kitchen cleaner upper.
96. Thankful the girls could be together today. Thankful they made cranberry jello salad and Aunt Sara's taco dip.
97. Thankful to have face time with the best grandkids in the world.
98. Thankful for time to finish a project.
99. Thankful for a warm fire in the pellet stove and a warm cup of tea on a cold night.
100. Thankful for dessert. Turtle cheesecake.
All in all, a very good day.
92. Thankful for old favorite dishes. Cranberry jello salad. Sweet potato casserole.
93. Thankful the Goob made the crescent rolls. Raised him to be a good Havener.
94. Thankful for leftovers packed neatly away in the fridge. No question what we will eat the next few days, just what form we will eat it in.
95. Thankful for the STP who is an excellent turkey picker and kitchen cleaner upper.
96. Thankful the girls could be together today. Thankful they made cranberry jello salad and Aunt Sara's taco dip.
97. Thankful to have face time with the best grandkids in the world.
98. Thankful for time to finish a project.
99. Thankful for a warm fire in the pellet stove and a warm cup of tea on a cold night.
100. Thankful for dessert. Turtle cheesecake.
All in all, a very good day.
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Thanksgiving Eve
81. Thankful for the STP and the relationships he has established with fellow pastors in Dodge City.
82. Thankful for the Thanksgiving eve service and the chance to offer thanks together.
83. Thankful that my Thanksgiving plans and preparations did not preclude me from worshipping.
84. Thankful the Goob went with us to the service. Thankful to hear him singing 'How Great is our God' next to me.
85. Thankful for snowfall and a peaceful walk home tonight over snow covered streets from the Thanksgiving eve service. Sweet time.
86. Thankful for hot chocolate and thin mint oreos with the Goob before bed.
87. Thankful the cranberry jello salad is all ready.
88. Thankful for the bread cubes that hold the promise of stuffing.
89. Thankful the grocery store lady talked me into a turkey.
90. Thankful it is 2 degrees outside and I will not feel the need to decorate outside tomorrow.
Note: Things I am not thankful for: Verizon's Thanks-Getting Ad campaign.
82. Thankful for the Thanksgiving eve service and the chance to offer thanks together.
83. Thankful that my Thanksgiving plans and preparations did not preclude me from worshipping.
84. Thankful the Goob went with us to the service. Thankful to hear him singing 'How Great is our God' next to me.
85. Thankful for snowfall and a peaceful walk home tonight over snow covered streets from the Thanksgiving eve service. Sweet time.
86. Thankful for hot chocolate and thin mint oreos with the Goob before bed.
87. Thankful the cranberry jello salad is all ready.
88. Thankful for the bread cubes that hold the promise of stuffing.
89. Thankful the grocery store lady talked me into a turkey.
90. Thankful it is 2 degrees outside and I will not feel the need to decorate outside tomorrow.
Note: Things I am not thankful for: Verizon's Thanks-Getting Ad campaign.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Fast Thanks
70. Thankful for my co-workers.
71. Thankful for car insurance.
72. Thankful for payday.
73. Thankful for Thanksgiving break.
74. Thankful Alex is traveling tonight before the worst of the storm.
75. Thankful for friends.
76. Thankful for tacos.
77. Thankful to have things to share.
78. Thankful to fellow bloggers.
79. Thankful for bluejeans.
80. Thankful for photographs. And memories. And Jim Croce.
71. Thankful for car insurance.
72. Thankful for payday.
73. Thankful for Thanksgiving break.
74. Thankful Alex is traveling tonight before the worst of the storm.
75. Thankful for friends.
76. Thankful for tacos.
77. Thankful to have things to share.
78. Thankful to fellow bloggers.
79. Thankful for bluejeans.
80. Thankful for photographs. And memories. And Jim Croce.
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Catching Up
61. Thankful for the STP who took me to the Mannheim Steamroller concert Thursday evening. An early Christmas gift to each other. We had been to one of their concerts when we lived in South Fork. Thankful none of us has changed a bit in 20 years.
62. Thankful for a night away at a motel. So good to not have to drive home in the middle of the night. And to just relax and forget everything waiting at home.
63. Thankful for music, which makes me remember things, and makes me forget things.
64. Thankful for a limited Christmas list. And the chance to get the bulk of my shopping done while I was in the city.
65. Thankful for snow. Just the right amount to accompany a Christmas concert and Christmas shopping.
66. Thankful to eat out. Lunch at HuHot Mongolian grill, breakfast at Stella's Kitchen and Bakery, lunch at Red Robin.
67. Thankful for date night two nights in a row. Stopped in Lovell to see The Martian at the Hyart.
Popcorn for supper? Oh, yeah.
68. Thankful for creative people who write books and make movies that capture my imagination.
69. Thankful for a dog sitter. I mean really thankful for a dog sitter.
62. Thankful for a night away at a motel. So good to not have to drive home in the middle of the night. And to just relax and forget everything waiting at home.
63. Thankful for music, which makes me remember things, and makes me forget things.
64. Thankful for a limited Christmas list. And the chance to get the bulk of my shopping done while I was in the city.
65. Thankful for snow. Just the right amount to accompany a Christmas concert and Christmas shopping.
66. Thankful to eat out. Lunch at HuHot Mongolian grill, breakfast at Stella's Kitchen and Bakery, lunch at Red Robin.
67. Thankful for date night two nights in a row. Stopped in Lovell to see The Martian at the Hyart.
Popcorn for supper? Oh, yeah.
68. Thankful for creative people who write books and make movies that capture my imagination.
69. Thankful for a dog sitter. I mean really thankful for a dog sitter.
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
More Thanks, Please.
57. Thankful for my sewing machine and a day to use it.
58. Thankful for my sister Nancy and a half hour to talk to her.
59. Thankful for the return of the muppets to TV. It allows me to continue to live with the delusion that someday I could be a puppeteer on the muppet show. You know, when I grow up.
60. Thankful for laughter.
58. Thankful for my sister Nancy and a half hour to talk to her.
59. Thankful for the return of the muppets to TV. It allows me to continue to live with the delusion that someday I could be a puppeteer on the muppet show. You know, when I grow up.
60. Thankful for laughter.
Taco Thanks
54. Thankful for the big room. Had 29 people over for tacos tonight.
55. Thankful for people who made two 9x13 pans of enchiladas to bring to Taco Tuesday. And others who brought brownies. And fruit salad. And popcorn. And taco salad bowls. Thankful for people who rely on the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
56. Thankful for the guidance and provision of the Holy Spirit.
55. Thankful for people who made two 9x13 pans of enchiladas to bring to Taco Tuesday. And others who brought brownies. And fruit salad. And popcorn. And taco salad bowls. Thankful for people who rely on the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
56. Thankful for the guidance and provision of the Holy Spirit.
Monday, November 16, 2015
Kisses
51. Thankful for hugs and kisses.
52. Thankful for chocolate kisses.
53. Thankful for dog kisses. Not. But I am thankful for my dog.
52. Thankful for chocolate kisses.
53. Thankful for dog kisses. Not. But I am thankful for my dog.
Sunday, November 15, 2015
Let's Move This Along
Halfway through the month. Feel the need to get to 50.
41. Thankful for Sundays. Fingerpainted in Sunday School, sang songs I knew the words to in worship service, ate a late lunch, took a long nap, watched a little football, snuggled with the SLD. I needed that.
42. Thankful for my girls. So glad to see the women they are becoming. Don't know that I can claim any responsibility, but I'm glad to have a part in their lives.
43. Thankful they are all thinking about moving to Wyoming. This will make my life better.
43. Thankful for my son. I'm probably more responsible for the person he is than I would care to admit, but I like him. Looking forward to hugging him next week.
44. Thankful for sunshine. Love the way it spreads across the ground early in the morning, warms the air in the afternoon, and colors the clouds as it sets in the evening.
45. Thankful for napkins. And for the STP who points out food on my chin that needs wiped off.
46. Thankful for toilet paper. While we are on the subject of paper products. Just sayin.
47. Thankful for craft ideas. I need to get moving actually making some, but it's good to have a starting point. Lets just say it--I'm thankful for Pinterest.
48. Thankful for my gratitude list. The focus is good for me. When the Goob was little, we would recount the story of the day and always end it with "all in all, it was a very good day". It does me good to look back over the day and see the good that was there.
49. Thankful for tomorrow off. No pressure to go to bed early, to finish up things tonight. There's always tomorrow.
50. Thankful for starry nights. Something so awe inspiring about the night sky. Wyoming does starry skies like no other. Thankful to be here.
41. Thankful for Sundays. Fingerpainted in Sunday School, sang songs I knew the words to in worship service, ate a late lunch, took a long nap, watched a little football, snuggled with the SLD. I needed that.
42. Thankful for my girls. So glad to see the women they are becoming. Don't know that I can claim any responsibility, but I'm glad to have a part in their lives.
43. Thankful for my son. I'm probably more responsible for the person he is than I would care to admit, but I like him. Looking forward to hugging him next week.
44. Thankful for sunshine. Love the way it spreads across the ground early in the morning, warms the air in the afternoon, and colors the clouds as it sets in the evening.
45. Thankful for napkins. And for the STP who points out food on my chin that needs wiped off.
46. Thankful for toilet paper. While we are on the subject of paper products. Just sayin.
47. Thankful for craft ideas. I need to get moving actually making some, but it's good to have a starting point. Lets just say it--I'm thankful for Pinterest.
48. Thankful for my gratitude list. The focus is good for me. When the Goob was little, we would recount the story of the day and always end it with "all in all, it was a very good day". It does me good to look back over the day and see the good that was there.
49. Thankful for tomorrow off. No pressure to go to bed early, to finish up things tonight. There's always tomorrow.
50. Thankful for starry nights. Something so awe inspiring about the night sky. Wyoming does starry skies like no other. Thankful to be here.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Grace, Peace, Love
38. Thankful for grace. Several quotes about grace have crossed my path this week.
This one from the December issue of Real Simple magazine: Hoping we've made the "nice" list helps reassure chiuldren that they're worthy,despite their failings and misbehaviors, of the love, goodwill, and yes, even the presents that come their way during the holidays. It's not Santa's magic that children cling to and need, but his grace.
The second one from an old Esquire magazine article about Mr. Rogers who added the Greek word for grace to his autograph: What is grace? He doesn't even know. He can't define it. This is a man who loves the simplifying force of definitions, and yet all he knows of grace is how he gets it; all he knows is that he gets it from God, through man.
A third one from Paul's letter to the Thessalonians: The amazing grace of Jesus Christ be with you.
I just share these just so I can ponder them a little more. Thankful for the favors extended to me this week which I was surely not deserving of.
39. Thankful for peace. A quiet heart in the midst of a turbulent world. Peace that surpasses understanding.
40. Thankful for love. Good to be loved. Good to know I am loved. Even when I am not very lovable.
This one from the December issue of Real Simple magazine: Hoping we've made the "nice" list helps reassure chiuldren that they're worthy,despite their failings and misbehaviors, of the love, goodwill, and yes, even the presents that come their way during the holidays. It's not Santa's magic that children cling to and need, but his grace.
The second one from an old Esquire magazine article about Mr. Rogers who added the Greek word for grace to his autograph: What is grace? He doesn't even know. He can't define it. This is a man who loves the simplifying force of definitions, and yet all he knows of grace is how he gets it; all he knows is that he gets it from God, through man.
A third one from Paul's letter to the Thessalonians: The amazing grace of Jesus Christ be with you.
I just share these just so I can ponder them a little more. Thankful for the favors extended to me this week which I was surely not deserving of.
39. Thankful for peace. A quiet heart in the midst of a turbulent world. Peace that surpasses understanding.
40. Thankful for love. Good to be loved. Good to know I am loved. Even when I am not very lovable.
Friday, November 13, 2015
Claire Marie and Abigail Lee
34. Thankful for my granddaughter (the best granddaughter in the world) who calls me up to sing me silly songs. Love her gentle spirit and easy laugh.
35. Thankful for her mom, my middle daughter. The child who only knew sharing, and has grown up to be one of the most generous, compassionate people I know.
36. Thankful for whomever told me during her junior high years that the most vocal teenagers make the most well adjusted adults.
37. Thankful it was true.
35. Thankful for her mom, my middle daughter. The child who only knew sharing, and has grown up to be one of the most generous, compassionate people I know.
36. Thankful for whomever told me during her junior high years that the most vocal teenagers make the most well adjusted adults.
37. Thankful it was true.
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Out of Nowhere
31. Thankful the damage done by the deer I hit on my way to work this morning did not make my car undrivable.
32. Thankful my dad taught me 'it's only metal'.
33. Thankful the STP's first question was 'Are you okay?'
32. Thankful my dad taught me 'it's only metal'.
33. Thankful the STP's first question was 'Are you okay?'
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
Three Little Things
28. Thankful for anticipation. Have tickets to see Mannheim Steamroller in concert next week. Spending the night in the big city. Thirty percent off at Kohl's and $10 Kohl's cash.
29. Thankful for Rachel Ray's taco seasoning recipe. Good. Easy. Gluten free.
30. Thankful for my oldest grandson. Love his tender spirit. His sensitivity. His smile.
Monday, November 09, 2015
Monday, Monday
25. Thankful for the STP to share my adventures with. Even the nasty disturbing uncomfortable ones.
26. Thankful for Hobby Lobby. Spent an hour there today on sensory overload. Replaced my number 6 round paintbrush. And bought a few supplies to update the Christmas wreath/frame. I have a plan that involves spray paint. So excited.
27. Thankful that Diet Pepsi no longer has aspertame.
26. Thankful for Hobby Lobby. Spent an hour there today on sensory overload. Replaced my number 6 round paintbrush. And bought a few supplies to update the Christmas wreath/frame. I have a plan that involves spray paint. So excited.
27. Thankful that Diet Pepsi no longer has aspertame.
Sunday, November 08, 2015
Sunday, Sunday
21. Thankful for uninterrupted sleep. Last night I got 5 hours. Tonight I hope to get eight.
22. Thankful for naps. Sunday afternoons are perfect for napping. Just me, my dog, an afghan, and the couch.
23. Thankful for prayers. Unspoken ones. Answered ones. Unanswered ones. Because they all stretch and strenghthen my faith.
24. Thankful for pray-ers. People who lift me up in prayer. People who pray about the things I pray about. People who pray even when they don't know what they are praying for.
22. Thankful for naps. Sunday afternoons are perfect for napping. Just me, my dog, an afghan, and the couch.
23. Thankful for prayers. Unspoken ones. Answered ones. Unanswered ones. Because they all stretch and strenghthen my faith.
24. Thankful for pray-ers. People who lift me up in prayer. People who pray about the things I pray about. People who pray even when they don't know what they are praying for.
Saturday, November 07, 2015
More Thankful Than I Sound
17. Thankful for shoeboxes. Packed ours for a boy this year. Thankful for getting things done on time.
18. Thankful for nurses who really care for patients. Privileged to see several in action today--providing care (including a hug) in a busy ER.
19. Thankful that I had no need to be a patient in the ER today.
20. Thankful for homemade salad dressing. And salads with strawberries in them.
18. Thankful for nurses who really care for patients. Privileged to see several in action today--providing care (including a hug) in a busy ER.
19. Thankful that I had no need to be a patient in the ER today.
20. Thankful for homemade salad dressing. And salads with strawberries in them.
Replace, Repair,...
It was not a spectacular year in the garden, but I grew enough hot peppers to be deemed 'the pepper lady' at work and I had stellar crop of carrots.
But the SFG fell apart at the end of the season.
So I informed the STP that it would need some attention, either now or in the Spring. He went out right away to survey the situation. One side completely separated from the other three. All the decorative corner pieces loose and falling off. He asked if I wanted it replaced or repaired. I was not very committed to gardening this summer and I was not ready to commit to a new garden, so I chose repair. The STP got right to work. Reattaching the fallen side and strengthening the corners.
Two corners look like this. Since I am not complaining this month, I suggested that this did not meet my expectations, because I only have 16 square feet of garden and he had made almost an entire square foot unusable.
So he repaired the third corner like this.
Once again my photography skills do not do this justice, because you can not see that there are three staples holding the L-shaped brace together.
And now just a reminder what these corners looked like originally.
So I prefaced my next comments to the STP by reminding him that I wasn't whining, BUT I realized that I did not want the SFG replaced or repaired. I wanted it restored. The STP reminded me that wasn't one of my choices. Fair enough.
Friday, November 06, 2015
Thanksgiving Pictorial Post
The sun roof in my car early yesterday morning. Love that little water molecules line themselves up when they get cold. The microbiologist is me is attracted to little things. Talking to the STP yesterday about nanotubes.
Me: I love the very idea of nanos. I wish I was...
I was thinking I wish I was starting my career over because I would be drawn to nantechnology. I almost said younger, but that wasn't quite what I wanted to say. While I was searching the hollowsof my mind for the right word the STP finished my sentence for me.
STP: Tiny?
Yes. That's it. I wish I was tiny. Nano size.
End of conversation.
15. Thankful for seat heaters. (Especially appreciated yesterday morning when the window panes were frosted.) If you have these in your car I don't need to explain.
If you don't have them, I don't need to rub it in.
16. Thankful for things that go honk in the night.
My day started early yesterday and ended early. Early this morning. When I was headed inside about 1:30am a large flock of geese flew overhead. Headed south. They were travelling loudly in a wide V, silhouetted white against the very dark sky. I stood looking upward, hearing them first and then watching them fly directly overhead. Then I took out my phone and snapped this awesome picture of the night sky, so I would remember to tell someone about it. Guess you had to be there.
Thursday, November 05, 2015
Baker's Dozen
10. Thankful for tea. Having a cup of green tea this evening. Wrapping my hands around the warm mug. Wafting the aroma until it is cool enough to sip. Eating two thin oreas while I wait. An evening cup of tea is being at my sister's house watching Tiny Houses. An evening cup of tea is being at my Mom's house. She fixed my Dad a cup each evening with milk and sugar. Her care for him is an encouragement to me that I will be able to handle the hard times with strength and grace (maybe being a graduate of the Grace Lane School of Compassion is a good thing) A cup of tea ties me to family.
11. Thankful for bread. Had a candlelight soup dinner tonight. Pure yummy without any of the work. Fresh warm rolls dipped in brocolli cheese soup? Yes, please.
12. Thankful for dark chocolate. Little Dove chocolates that I have convinced myself are lowering my cholesterol.
13. Thankful for bed. Plan to use my beach app tonight to pretend I have a beach house. Love falling asleep at the shore (even if it is snowing outside for real.)
11. Thankful for bread. Had a candlelight soup dinner tonight. Pure yummy without any of the work. Fresh warm rolls dipped in brocolli cheese soup? Yes, please.
12. Thankful for dark chocolate. Little Dove chocolates that I have convinced myself are lowering my cholesterol.
13. Thankful for bed. Plan to use my beach app tonight to pretend I have a beach house. Love falling asleep at the shore (even if it is snowing outside for real.)
Before and After or Happy Landing
The little landing at the house next door. Along with the steps to the basement this was covered with carpet when we bought the house. We left the carpet in place until the basement remodel was done. And then we just cleaned it off and called it good.
Except it wasn't.
The very first thing I pinned on The House Next Door board was a painted floor. I thought I would have to paint the front porch floor, but it sanded off so well that we just resealed it. But I never gave up the idea of a painted floor.
The steps above the landing still had linoleum on them, covered with some sort of adhesive. The steps below the landing were wooden and I repainted them earlier. The little landing was wood, covered with varying amounts of paint, old linoleum, and sticky black stuff.
After several weeks of sanding and scraping, planning and painting in spurts fit between my work schedule and the need to go up and down the steps, this is what I ended up with. All done with supplies that I already had. Total cost? $4.95 for sealing wax for the linoleum left on the steps. (And one 6 round paint brush)
Total return? A happy little welcome everytime the downstairs tenants come home and a little spot of happy for the upstairs tenants when they go and come from the laundry room. For me-- three weeks of happy--designing and painting. Seeing an idea become reality. Transformation. It's what this HND project is about.
Happy
Happy
Happy
Wednesday, November 04, 2015
Thank God
Thanks be to God. It only makes sense that thankfulness is extended to someone. A Provider.
Just sayin'.
7. Thankful for my Tuesday morning Bible study ladies. A group of a dozen amazing women who study, discuss, challenge and pray for each other. Today we discussed what our glorified bodies would be like. Whether we would be wearing shoes when we are caught up to meet Jesus in the air. Why, if we were dead in Christ, we would come back for our bodies. If the dead rise first, how much later will those alive get caught up? If the world is round how will we all see Jesus at the same time? What will facebook posts look like on the day of the rapture? In the midst of that we talked about hope.
Put your hope in the LORD. For there is faithful love with the LORD, and with Him is redemption in abundance.
Psalm 130:7
And we talked about balance. All in under two hours. I told you they are amazing.
8. Thankful for rain. Something refreshing, cleansing, nourishing about evening rain. Especially when I dont have to go out in it.
9. Thankful for honey butter. A yummy discovery I made tonight. I will be making this in the very near future. Eating it on toast. (Or with a spoon.)
Just sayin'.
7. Thankful for my Tuesday morning Bible study ladies. A group of a dozen amazing women who study, discuss, challenge and pray for each other. Today we discussed what our glorified bodies would be like. Whether we would be wearing shoes when we are caught up to meet Jesus in the air. Why, if we were dead in Christ, we would come back for our bodies. If the dead rise first, how much later will those alive get caught up? If the world is round how will we all see Jesus at the same time? What will facebook posts look like on the day of the rapture? In the midst of that we talked about hope.
Put your hope in the LORD. For there is faithful love with the LORD, and with Him is redemption in abundance.
Psalm 130:7
And we talked about balance. All in under two hours. I told you they are amazing.
8. Thankful for rain. Something refreshing, cleansing, nourishing about evening rain. Especially when I dont have to go out in it.
9. Thankful for honey butter. A yummy discovery I made tonight. I will be making this in the very near future. Eating it on toast. (Or with a spoon.)
Tuesday, November 03, 2015
About My Day--Too Busy for Whining
Started the morning with a list of things I wanted to get done today. Added some things I wanted the STP to get done today. Crossed everything off the list (except vacuum the living room, but, hey, I only added that because I thought I should, not because I wanted to). Added a few things that the STP did that were not originally on the list. The STP does not operate well from a list. Just saying.
4. I'm thankful for accomplishments. Today I paid some first of the month bills. And I had money left over. Right up until the mail came. With more bills. So I will add 'Pay bills' to tomorrow's list. Today's list also included paint the floor, wax the steps, till the garden, rake the leaves, wash the shower curtain, water plants and dust the big room, take down the porch swing, put up the hooks in anticipation of hanging snowflakes, clean the fan and finish my Bible study. All done. All crossed off. But seriously, if all I had accomplished today was painting this bird, I would still be thankful.
5. I'm thankful for orange envelopes in the mail. Today, along with the bills, the mail lady delivered a shutterfly envelope. With a 2016 calendar with pictures of our family. And while it made me happy, it made the STP sad. Because we don't see enough of them. I will feel that way another day, but today I just felt happy that there so many pictures of us together. And so many pictures of all of them doing well. I'm going to look through it again before I go to bed. So thankful that I will have this to look at all next year. Thankful for whomever put it together. Here is a facetime picture of the best granddaughter in the world. Its not from the calendar, but it also makes me happy. This is the beautiful child who read me the creation story from her Bible. Like I said, the best.
4. I'm thankful for accomplishments. Today I paid some first of the month bills. And I had money left over. Right up until the mail came. With more bills. So I will add 'Pay bills' to tomorrow's list. Today's list also included paint the floor, wax the steps, till the garden, rake the leaves, wash the shower curtain, water plants and dust the big room, take down the porch swing, put up the hooks in anticipation of hanging snowflakes, clean the fan and finish my Bible study. All done. All crossed off. But seriously, if all I had accomplished today was painting this bird, I would still be thankful.
5. I'm thankful for orange envelopes in the mail. Today, along with the bills, the mail lady delivered a shutterfly envelope. With a 2016 calendar with pictures of our family. And while it made me happy, it made the STP sad. Because we don't see enough of them. I will feel that way another day, but today I just felt happy that there so many pictures of us together. And so many pictures of all of them doing well. I'm going to look through it again before I go to bed. So thankful that I will have this to look at all next year. Thankful for whomever put it together. Here is a facetime picture of the best granddaughter in the world. Its not from the calendar, but it also makes me happy. This is the beautiful child who read me the creation story from her Bible. Like I said, the best.
6. I'm thankful for play. This month my play involved paint. The STPs play involved hunting and climbing rock cliff walls and tying a rope to himself and having his hunting buddy lower him over the side of the cliff to retrieve his gun. The STP and I do not play well together. Play involves something where you don't know the outcome, so both our endeavors qualify. Here is where my project ended up. I had several plans, several revisions, and I'm not sure yet that I am happy with the final result, but I am very happy with the way some parts turned out. And I'm thankful for the chance to do it.
Need to add "Varnish the floor" to the list.
Sunday, November 01, 2015
No-whining-vember
Whining because I am dissatisfied. Dissatisfied because I focus on the negative instead of the positive. Intensifed when I am tired.
1. Thankful for the STP who reminded me this morning that I have been given a great gift from my Creator. The gift of choice.
So I am choosing gratitude for the month of November. Focusing on the positive. Recognizing the good.
2. Thankful for the gift of choice. I am not always good at choosing. I don't always make good choices. But I am thankful for the freedom to choose. Which comes with the freedom to fail.
So even if I don't make it to 100 before the first of December, or if I get overtired and whine, my Creator (and the STP) will still love me.
3. Thankful for the Word of God which tells me that I am loved. Jesus loves me this I know. In the past two weeks, I have had the privilege to listen to three beautiful young women read aloud from their new Bibles. One read me the story of the creation of Eve. Moved to think of the Father sharing those first moments with his daughter in the garden. Delighting in her discovery of a waterfall.
I got that.
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Snow Way
Saw a snow plow on my way to work this morning. No snow, just a plow with flashing lights, driving along a snowless road. Thinking that is like seeing a robin in the spring. Saw my first snow plow today. Winter can't be far away.
Friday, October 02, 2015
Bad Hair Days
One of two things is happening.
Possibility #1. My hair has reached critical mass where the number of gray hairs on my head outnumbers the brown hairs on my head. When I discovered my first gray hairs many years ago (you know, the ones that stick weirdly out of the top of your head) I wondered what my hair would look like when they were all gray hairs sticking out of my head in every direction possible. Yesterday that happened. It was not pretty.
Possibility #2. My hair is possessed by an evil spirit. The more attention I pay to it, the more power it claims. Today that seemed like a pretty real possibility. It was not pretty.
I either need an exorcism or a haircut.
Possibility #1. My hair has reached critical mass where the number of gray hairs on my head outnumbers the brown hairs on my head. When I discovered my first gray hairs many years ago (you know, the ones that stick weirdly out of the top of your head) I wondered what my hair would look like when they were all gray hairs sticking out of my head in every direction possible. Yesterday that happened. It was not pretty.
Possibility #2. My hair is possessed by an evil spirit. The more attention I pay to it, the more power it claims. Today that seemed like a pretty real possibility. It was not pretty.
I either need an exorcism or a haircut.
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Corn Tortillas-Take One
This morning at 2:15am I was sitting at work waiting for someone to pee. ('cause I didn't make an informed decision about my career choice when I was 17yo) And I decided in the moment that I wanted to learn to make my own corn tortillas. Fresh tortillas. I wrote it down so I wouldn't forget it. And I came home from church this afternoon on a mission. Oddly, I already had masa harina, a plastic shopping bag, and a tortilla press in my cupboard. (Unlike last Sunday when I had to borrow 4 eggs at 10:30pm to make cherry bars) Because the STP had a desire for fresh corn tortillas a long time ago. (That's what make this marriage work. We think alike--just years apart.) Here is what I learned: I need a bigger cast iron skillet or griddle. My tortilla press does not work as well as the press in the youtube video. You should have a plan for what you plan to put in your tortillas before you start cooking them. All said and done, with the STP's enthusiastic help, we had quesadillas for lunch today made with fresh homemade corn tortillas. And I am determined to get good at this. Putting "Master Corn Tortillas" on my bucket list.
I'm not on call tonight. Plan to sleep straight thru the night. Unless I have to get up at 2:15 to pee.
I'm not on call tonight. Plan to sleep straight thru the night. Unless I have to get up at 2:15 to pee.
Wednesday, September 09, 2015
If I Took My Camera to the Camp Out
I would have snapped a picture of our tent in the woods. I would have taken a picture of our queen sized air mattress before it deflated. I would have taken a picture of the STP sleeping flat on the ground and me up in the air. A picture of my feet wearing my pink wool socks. And one of my sleeping bag with a lump in the bottom where the SLD was snuggled.
I would have taken a picture of the campfire. One with high dancing flames and another with red hot coals. And the perfectly toasted marshmallow just before I put it inside a peanut butter oreo. S'moreos. You would have taken a picture of me with my mouth open wide, stuffing a peanut butter s'moreo inside. And one of everyone who ate a s'moreo.
I would have taken a picture of the SLD in the kayak with the STP and myself. It would have us all three perfectly framed. Smiling. I would take it with a selfie stick (if I had one) so my face would not be disproportionately large and distorted. And the SLD would be looking at the camera. And the background would be lake and mountains with pine trees and blue skies with white clouds.
I would have taken a picture of the cow and calf moose along the shore of Sibley Lake. You would be able to see what large majestic animals they are. I would have taken a picture of the beaver dam and the pine tree the beavers were cutting down. Cut deep in on opposite sides of the tree. I would have taken a close up of the wood chips on the ground around the tree so you could imagine how big and strong beaver teeth must be. I would have taken a picture of the seaweed in the lake shimmering as its flat surface reflected the sun. And a picture of the kayaks on top or the car.
I would have taken a picture of the glassy lake surface when we went back for an evening kayak ride. And a million of the sunset. From the lake. From the car. Glory rays shooting up from the horizon. You know I would.
I would have taken a picture of the STP preaching at the worship service outside. And I would have snapped one of my friend Lisa standing behind her tripod on top of an ATV taking the group picture. And a picture of all the church campers lined up waiting for fellowship dinner.
At least one of the rocks we went to see on the ATV. The ones we climbed over and on. I would have posed by the hoodoo so it looked like I was holding it up and I would have asked the STP to take my picture. And I would have taken a picture of the deep pool in the stream so I could remember how clear the water was and how I could see the fish swimming.
I would have taken a picture of the food I cooked and the food I ate. Pizza Nachos. Salmon/green bean foil packets. Taco salad.
I would have taken a picture of our tent coming down. The empty campsite. Of two little ones stomping their feet and refusing to leave when their parents insisted it was time to go home. Because I felt the same way.
And then I would leave the pictures on my camera. Or delete them by accident.
Monday, August 24, 2015
Put it on, Cross it off
The Sandbucket list
1. Visit Waterfalls
a. Porcupine Falls
b. Five Springs Falls
c. Shell Falls
d. Bushkill Falls
e. Pennell Falls
f. Buttermilk Falls
g. Dingman's Falls
h. Silverthread Falls
i. Raymondskill Falls
j. Factory Falls
k. Fulmer Falls
l. Deer Leap Falls
2. Hang out with the Kids and Grandkids
3. Eat corn on the cob
4. See fireflies
5. Drive across the country (CA to MD--just not all in one trip)
6. Putt Putt golf with Claire and Nick
7. Hit golf balls at the driving range
8. Grow hot peppers in the SFG
9. Put the kayak in the water
10. Clean out The Goob's toybox(!)
Nine out of ten isn't bad.
a. Porcupine Falls
b. Five Springs Falls
c. Shell Falls
d. Bushkill Falls
e. Pennell Falls
f. Buttermilk Falls
g. Dingman's Falls
h. Silverthread Falls
i. Raymondskill Falls
j. Factory Falls
k. Fulmer Falls
l. Deer Leap Falls
10. Clean out The Goob's toybox(!)
Nine out of ten isn't bad.
Saturday, May 02, 2015
Pap Defined
Had some Pap toast this week. Made me smile. Miss that man.
My kids were privileged to know my dad. He lived with us for a school year and close to us for 9 years when they were growing up. He told them jokes and laughed at their jokes. He pulled them in their little red wagon and he rode it down the road in front of our house. He went to their school concerts and their soccer games. He read about them in the Portage Dispatch. He was a part of their lives and he became part of our family voacabulary as well. Pap pants= painter or carpenter jeans. With lots of pockets and a loop for your hammer. Natural color.
Pap toast= stale hot dog bun opened and toasted in the toaster. Served with butter. Can add jelly. Or peanut butter and banana slices.
Monday, April 27, 2015
The STP and My Southern Travels
Abraham Lincoln's head on a stick monument. Built to mark the highest point on the Lincoln Highway in honor of Lincoln's 150th birthday even though he had nothing to do with building the highway. Moved to it's present location along I-80 so it would not be sitting in a field in the middle of nowhere.
The Ames monument. Built at the highest point along the transcontinental railroad to honor Oliver and Oakes Ames--Two shovel makers from Massachucetts who were recruited by Abraham Lincoln (see above) to finance and build the railroad and who were later accused of fraud. When the railroad relocated, the monument remained, leaving it sitting in a field in the middle of nowhere. (The Ames brothers went on to sell shovels and axes to California gold rushers.)
Curt Gowdy State Park. Judging from the grand entrance, this is the Wyoming equivalent of DisneyLand. Named for native Wyomingite Curt Gowdy. A mecca for fishing, mountain biking, and a place you can camp with your horse.
Turtle Rock trail at Vedauwoo*. With somewhat less than an adequate trailmap (or perhaps a less than adequate map reader) we ended up at the wrong parking area in search of Turtle Rock. (There are rock climbers in this picture, but the STP and I are not among them.)
Not to worry, as our search for turtle rock led us on a beautiful hike on a beautiful day. And maybe this is turtle rock.
The Sinks of the Popo Agie* River. A river which disappears into a 'sink' hole in the ground and reappears 1/4 mile away at the 'rise'. Spring is a great time to visit Wyoming because there are no tourists to get in your way. On the other hand, all the visitor centers (and their restrooms) are closed. Something you might want to consider if you plan to be around a gurgling river.
Talk like a local:
Hoodoo: a natural column of rock in western North America often in fantastic form
Vedauwoo pronounced (vi dÉ™ vu:) : A popular rock climbing area with no apparent rocks shaped like turtles.
Popo Agie pronounced (puh - Po Shuh): A Crow Indian word meaning 'gurgling river'
Yard Sale Season--Opening Day
Seriously working too many Saturday mornings this month. But I did make it to one day of yard sales. This year I am going to try and keep track of what I spend, what I buy, and what I do with it. Hopefully "Put it in the garage" will not be the norm.
What I spent=$1.00. I 'bundled' these three items at one garage sale.
1. Turquoise flower pot. Great size, great color. Repotted my Christmas cactus.
2. Handful of embroidery floss. Made end of the year gifts for the first grade girls in my AWANA group.
3. Paper towel holder. This was in need of a good scrubbing. In addition, I sanded and painted and put it to use immediately at The House Next Door.Not bad for a dollar.
I work the next two Saturday mornings. Guess I could pretend shop some items from my own garage...
It is Finished
Chronicling a few projects that I finished in the last two months. Including this little old dresser. Picked it up at a yard sale last summer. Fixed the drawers, sanded and oiled the wood. Pretty little piece that I will use in the guest room.
Five friendship bracelets that I made for my AWANA girls. A little something to remind them that Jesus and I love them. A fun little project for me. Made me wish my girls were little again.
Framed this piece of an old quilt for my bedroom gallery wall. This quilt came from Grandma Weinzierl's house. My favorite sister gave me this little piece many years ago. Like maybe 20 years ago. This worn out quilt top was sewn over another worn out quilt.
Possible my favorite and longest unfinished project is the little chair on the right. The one on the left I had done when Alex was little to match a table I painted for him. We only had this one chair. We moved it with the table to the attic not that many years ago. Then I found another little school chair. And I finally got around to painting it to match. And then I had to track down the dog pictures to decoupage on the seat. Serendipity to find a couple of Sam the Cowboy books at the Dodge City Library.
A few color copies of Flop the dog, a few coats of polyurethane, and another project in the works for 15 years is finished. (Put it in the attic until Alex has the twins.)
Painted three doors, two sets of closet doors, some laundry room cabinets, and the floor and this sign for the laundry room at the House Next Door.
A sheet of sand paper, my hot glue gun, and a handful of shells?
One more frame filled on the gallery wall.
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Saturday, April 04, 2015
Rich Beyond Measure
One of my favorite stories. Appropriate for Easter weekend. Using a dozen eggs to make baked eggs for sunrise breakfast and 5 pounds of potatoes to make creamy oven potatoes for fellowship dinner tomorrow. Feeling especially rich today.
The Rich Family in Church
By Eddie Ogan
I'll never forget Easter 1946. I was 14, my little sister Ocy was 12, and my older sister Darlene 16. We lived at home with our mother, and the four of us knew what it was to do without many things. My dad had died five years before, leaving Mom with seven school kids to raise and no money.
By 1946 my older sisters were married and my brothers had left home. A month before Easter the pastor of our church announced that a special Easter offering would be taken to help a poor family. He asked everyone to save and give sacrificially.
When we got home, we talked about what we could do. We decided to buy 50 pounds of potatoes and live on them for a month. This would allow us to save $20 of our grocery money for the offering. When we thought that if we kept our electric lights turned out as much as possible and didn't listen to the radio, we'd save money on that month's electric bill. Darlene got as many house and yard cleaning jobs as possible, and both of us babysat for everyone we could. For 15 cents we could buy enough cotton loops to make three pot holders to sell for $1.
We made $20 on pot holders. That month was one of the best of our lives.
Every day we counted the money to see how much we had saved. At night we'd sit in the dark and talk about how the poor family was going to enjoy having the money the church would give them. We had about 80 people in church, so figured that whatever amount of money we had to give, the offering would surely be 20 times that much. After all, every Sunday the pastor had reminded everyone to save for the sacrificial offering.
The day before Easter, Ocy and I walked to the grocery store and got the manager to give us three crisp $20 bills and one $10 bill for all our change.
We ran all the way home to show Mom and Darlene. We had never had so much money before.
That night we were so excited we could hardly sleep. We didn't care that we wouldn't have new clothes for Easter; we had $70 for the sacrificial offering.
We could hardly wait to get to church! On Sunday morning, rain was pouring. We didn't own an umbrella, and the church was over a mile from our home, but it didn't seem to matter how wet we got. Darlene had cardboard in her shoes to fill the holes. The cardboard came apart, and her feet got wet.
But we sat in church proudly. I heard some teenagers talking about the Smith girls having on their old dresses. I looked at them in their new clothes, and I felt rich.
When the sacrificial offering was taken, we were sitting on the second row from the front. Mom put in the $10 bill, and each of us kids put in a $20.
As we walked home after church, we sang all the way. At lunch Mom had a surprise for us. She had bought a dozen eggs, and we had boiled Easter eggs with our fried potatoes! Late that afternoon the minister drove up in his car. Mom went to the door, talked with him for a moment, and then came back with an envelope in her hand. We asked what it was, but she didn't say a word. She opened the envelope and out fell a bunch of money. There were three crisp $20 bills, one $10 and seventeen $1 bills.
Mom put the money back in the envelope. We didn't talk, just sat and stared at the floor. We had gone from feeling like millionaires to feeling like poor white trash. We kids had such a happy life that we felt sorry for anyone who didn't have our Mom and Dad for parents and a house full of brothers and sisters and other kids visiting constantly. We thought it was fun to share silverware and see whether we got the spoon or the fork that night.
We had two knifes that we passed around to whoever needed them. I knew we didn't have a lot of things that other people had, but I'd never thought we were poor.
That Easter day I found out we were. The minister had brought us the money for the poor family, so we must be poor. I didn't like being poor. I looked at my dress and worn-out shoes and felt so ashamed—I didn't even want to go back to church. Everyone there probably already knew we were poor!
I thought about school. I was in the ninth grade and at the top of my class of over 100 students. I wondered if the kids at school knew that we were poor. I decided that I could quit school since I had finished the eighth grade. That was all the law required at that time. We sat in silence for a long time. Then it got dark, and we went to bed. All that week, we girls went to school and came home, and no one talked much. Finally on Saturday, Mom asked us what we wanted to do with the money. What did poor people do with money? We didn't know. We'd never known we were poor. We didn't want to go to church on Sunday, but Mom said we had to. Although it was a sunny day, we didn't talk on the way.
Mom started to sing, but no one joined in and she only sang one verse. At church we had a missionary speaker. He talked about how churches in Africa made buildings out of sun dried bricks, but they needed money to buy roofs. He said $100 would put a roof on a church. The minister said, "Can't we all sacrifice to help these poor people?" We looked at each other and smiled for the first time in a week.
Mom reached into her purse and pulled out the envelope. She passed it to Darlene. Darlene gave it to me, and I handed it to Ocy. Ocy put it in the offering.
When the offering was counted, the minister announced that it was a little over $100. The missionary was excited. He hadn't expected such a large offering from our small church. He said, "You must have some rich people in this church."
Suddenly it struck us! We had given $87 of that "little over $100."
We were the rich family in the church! Hadn't the missionary said so? From that day on I've never been poor again. I've always remembered how rich I am because I have Jesus!
The Rich Family in Church
By Eddie Ogan
I'll never forget Easter 1946. I was 14, my little sister Ocy was 12, and my older sister Darlene 16. We lived at home with our mother, and the four of us knew what it was to do without many things. My dad had died five years before, leaving Mom with seven school kids to raise and no money.
By 1946 my older sisters were married and my brothers had left home. A month before Easter the pastor of our church announced that a special Easter offering would be taken to help a poor family. He asked everyone to save and give sacrificially.
When we got home, we talked about what we could do. We decided to buy 50 pounds of potatoes and live on them for a month. This would allow us to save $20 of our grocery money for the offering. When we thought that if we kept our electric lights turned out as much as possible and didn't listen to the radio, we'd save money on that month's electric bill. Darlene got as many house and yard cleaning jobs as possible, and both of us babysat for everyone we could. For 15 cents we could buy enough cotton loops to make three pot holders to sell for $1.
We made $20 on pot holders. That month was one of the best of our lives.
Every day we counted the money to see how much we had saved. At night we'd sit in the dark and talk about how the poor family was going to enjoy having the money the church would give them. We had about 80 people in church, so figured that whatever amount of money we had to give, the offering would surely be 20 times that much. After all, every Sunday the pastor had reminded everyone to save for the sacrificial offering.
The day before Easter, Ocy and I walked to the grocery store and got the manager to give us three crisp $20 bills and one $10 bill for all our change.
We ran all the way home to show Mom and Darlene. We had never had so much money before.
That night we were so excited we could hardly sleep. We didn't care that we wouldn't have new clothes for Easter; we had $70 for the sacrificial offering.
We could hardly wait to get to church! On Sunday morning, rain was pouring. We didn't own an umbrella, and the church was over a mile from our home, but it didn't seem to matter how wet we got. Darlene had cardboard in her shoes to fill the holes. The cardboard came apart, and her feet got wet.
But we sat in church proudly. I heard some teenagers talking about the Smith girls having on their old dresses. I looked at them in their new clothes, and I felt rich.
When the sacrificial offering was taken, we were sitting on the second row from the front. Mom put in the $10 bill, and each of us kids put in a $20.
As we walked home after church, we sang all the way. At lunch Mom had a surprise for us. She had bought a dozen eggs, and we had boiled Easter eggs with our fried potatoes! Late that afternoon the minister drove up in his car. Mom went to the door, talked with him for a moment, and then came back with an envelope in her hand. We asked what it was, but she didn't say a word. She opened the envelope and out fell a bunch of money. There were three crisp $20 bills, one $10 and seventeen $1 bills.
Mom put the money back in the envelope. We didn't talk, just sat and stared at the floor. We had gone from feeling like millionaires to feeling like poor white trash. We kids had such a happy life that we felt sorry for anyone who didn't have our Mom and Dad for parents and a house full of brothers and sisters and other kids visiting constantly. We thought it was fun to share silverware and see whether we got the spoon or the fork that night.
We had two knifes that we passed around to whoever needed them. I knew we didn't have a lot of things that other people had, but I'd never thought we were poor.
That Easter day I found out we were. The minister had brought us the money for the poor family, so we must be poor. I didn't like being poor. I looked at my dress and worn-out shoes and felt so ashamed—I didn't even want to go back to church. Everyone there probably already knew we were poor!
I thought about school. I was in the ninth grade and at the top of my class of over 100 students. I wondered if the kids at school knew that we were poor. I decided that I could quit school since I had finished the eighth grade. That was all the law required at that time. We sat in silence for a long time. Then it got dark, and we went to bed. All that week, we girls went to school and came home, and no one talked much. Finally on Saturday, Mom asked us what we wanted to do with the money. What did poor people do with money? We didn't know. We'd never known we were poor. We didn't want to go to church on Sunday, but Mom said we had to. Although it was a sunny day, we didn't talk on the way.
Mom started to sing, but no one joined in and she only sang one verse. At church we had a missionary speaker. He talked about how churches in Africa made buildings out of sun dried bricks, but they needed money to buy roofs. He said $100 would put a roof on a church. The minister said, "Can't we all sacrifice to help these poor people?" We looked at each other and smiled for the first time in a week.
Mom reached into her purse and pulled out the envelope. She passed it to Darlene. Darlene gave it to me, and I handed it to Ocy. Ocy put it in the offering.
When the offering was counted, the minister announced that it was a little over $100. The missionary was excited. He hadn't expected such a large offering from our small church. He said, "You must have some rich people in this church."
Suddenly it struck us! We had given $87 of that "little over $100."
We were the rich family in the church! Hadn't the missionary said so? From that day on I've never been poor again. I've always remembered how rich I am because I have Jesus!
Sunday, February 22, 2015
How Was Your Trip?
In January I made a trip home. To see my new grandbaby. To exchange Christmas gifts with my brothers and sisters and their families. To celebrate my Mom's 80th birthday. To see my Dad.
When I got back everyone asked the same question: How was your trip?
And I didn't have an answer. I didn't have a blog post. The absolute wonder and joy of holding the firtstborn baby of my firstborn baby. The absolute unfairness and sadness of Alzheimer's disease. Helping to change diapers-on men 4 generations apart. How do you process that?
Since I have been home, Levi learned to smile, my Dad forgot how to, and my brothers and sisters and I have talked and exchanged more text messages than we care to recount.
Today Stasi posted a picture of Levi sleeping peacefully. Today my brother left a voicemail that my Dad died peacefully. How do you process that?
Today I booked another trip home.
When I got back everyone asked the same question: How was your trip?
And I didn't have an answer. I didn't have a blog post. The absolute wonder and joy of holding the firtstborn baby of my firstborn baby. The absolute unfairness and sadness of Alzheimer's disease. Helping to change diapers-on men 4 generations apart. How do you process that?
Since I have been home, Levi learned to smile, my Dad forgot how to, and my brothers and sisters and I have talked and exchanged more text messages than we care to recount.
Today Stasi posted a picture of Levi sleeping peacefully. Today my brother left a voicemail that my Dad died peacefully. How do you process that?
Today I booked another trip home.
Sunday, February 01, 2015
The End of Parenthood as We Know It
Parenthood (You know, my favorite TV show) ended for good this week. Back in the early years I wanted to be married to Adam Braverman, but in the years since I thought of him more like my big brother. I will miss him. The end of my TV family puts a lot more pressure on my real family.
Usually I work Thursday evenings and watch the show later in the week from the DVR without the commercials. This week I was off Thursday evening, but I started watching late so I could fast forward through the commercials. The STP was running the remote. What he didn't realize was that I needed the commercial time to cry and recompose myself between segments. So there I was awake at three in the morning. Crying. Replaying in my head the scene where Zeke tells Sarah she is his favorite and she tells him he has been the best dad. Sobbing. Because I will never have that conversation with my dad. Even though I am his favorite and he has been the best dad.
I got up to blow my nose and wipe my eyes, and moved on to the baseball game scene. So reminiscent of the game we played in Cambridge. And I realized that the Bravermans got nothing on us.
Usually I work Thursday evenings and watch the show later in the week from the DVR without the commercials. This week I was off Thursday evening, but I started watching late so I could fast forward through the commercials. The STP was running the remote. What he didn't realize was that I needed the commercial time to cry and recompose myself between segments. So there I was awake at three in the morning. Crying. Replaying in my head the scene where Zeke tells Sarah she is his favorite and she tells him he has been the best dad. Sobbing. Because I will never have that conversation with my dad. Even though I am his favorite and he has been the best dad.
I got up to blow my nose and wipe my eyes, and moved on to the baseball game scene. So reminiscent of the game we played in Cambridge. And I realized that the Bravermans got nothing on us.
In fact, whatever the Bravermans had for the last six years, we have more. More drama. More problems. More brothers. More sisters. More nieces, nephews, grandkids, and great grandkids. More meals and games in our parents' backyard. More squabbles. More laughs. More love.
And if we were a TV family, I'd still be the favorite. Just saying.
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